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Parents

Honestly, God has spoiled me with the best parents ever.

I had the crappiest day this summer, a day filled with sleep, no eating, constant crying, all that emo-jazz in one package. Yea…problems with friends SUCK but God has given me this day to really rely on Him.

Through all this my parents did everything they could to make me feel better.  My dad embraced me and lectured me about how relationships can be.  He then put on this RANDOM TV show and made me watch it.  It was totally useless to watch but I realized he made me watch it just so I could stop thinking about the problems I was dealing with.

Then my mom came into my room after work and encouraged me with “God-talk”.  What a woman of wisdom.  She then rebuked me for not eating the whole entire day and started asking me what I wanted to eat. I really didn’t have an appetite for anything. But my mom does everything she could to make me feel better.  She would joke around with me and talk in these funny accents just to make me smile. Then she literally forces me to get out of my room to go food shopping with her and buys me In&Out.

Although they were so corny, I couldn’t help but smile and be so thankful that God has let me be born into a family like this.  I want to be a parent like them but not only to my own children, but especially to the orphaned.  Thank you Jesus.

I told myself that I shouldn’t ever regret anything in life.

But honestly, I’m regretting this decision I made.

Focus on Riverside? Yea, I can do that but I want more. I want to expand my capacity of leadership.  Now, it’s too late. 

God, I just hope that you have something up your sleeve cause right now, I’m just not feeling it.

FLAT ABS

For years, I’ve been dreaming of the perfect body.

When will I get it? HAHAHA…

I’m leaving it at this….

no regrets.

The God that I had forgotten.

He reminded me today, 

“You placed me on the cross, why haven’t you placed me on the throne?”

It’s what broke my spiritual barrier between me and Him.  All this time, I KNEW God was there helping me, protecting me, providing for me, leading/guiding me, but I didn’t give Him the praise that He deserved.  I acknowledged Him from time to time, but acknowledgement is definitely not enough…not even to the slightest bit.

God deserves all of me. The things I cherish in life does not compare to the greatness of Him. Why do I place these worldly longings on the throne of my life when it’s HIM that should be sitting there.

I really need to change my habits, my daily routine.

I’m going to try something new…